As an asexual person, I feel lonely sometimes. I don’t experience sexual attraction whatsoever, even though I make jokes. I don’t have the ability to look at someone and say, “I wish I could have sex with them.” I don’t feel pleasure during sexual activities, it’s just staring at the ceiling and wondering if I should do laundry today or not. And I see everyone else excitedly talking about sex and how they want to do it with people (or fictional characters), and I feel distant. I never felt that. I doubt I ever will.

My own significant other, whom I love very much, I’ve seen naked and I just don’t feel anything. I love seeing it because that body belongs to the person who has my heart, but I don’t see it in a sexual way. Oh, I get urges sometimes, but those urges are more of a nuisance than something enjoyable. Those urges are more akin to an itch: something that just needs to go away, and not in some tsundere, I-want-it-but-I’ll-pretend-I-don’t way. It’s honestly aggravating.

Feeling this way, being asexual, is lonely.