I hate when my brain keeps trying to tell me that I have no one that likes or cares about me.
I know it’s not true, but it’s so easy to make me think and feel like that because of my past relationships were I was easily left and forgotten. Especially with people I deeply care about.
If I don’t hear anything from them for a long time my brain now automatically thinks “oh they found someone else that they like and makes them happier. They don’t need me now. They don’t want to be around me anymore.”
I’m tired of yelling at myself to stop it and that none of its true.
I’m tired of having the need to be constantly reassured that I’m cared about and loved and wanting someone always around. Because I feel selfish for wanting that.