every fiber of my being is trying to keep myself from going downhill right now. Like whyyy….not now, i’d like to stay happy please

Cherry blabsignore meseriously ignore mejust feeling like a dumb friendand a dumb personlike I dont really feel like I interact with peopleor at least not enougheven ones I consider friendsbut I dont want to bother anyonebut im freakin lonely all the timeim such a dumbwhy would anyone wanna talk to me anywayor do anything with mei dont have anything to sayim no fun