I dunno why I even try sometimes
like why do I even try to have friends or be in a relationship
I know I don’t deserve them
or am good enough for them
I love them dearly and want to spend every moment with them
but the longer the friendship or relationship lasts the more my mind tells me I shouldn’t know them
I shouldn’t be with them
Why do they even like me? Do they actually like me?
I am nothing
I’m just an idiot with too much time on my hands and let’s myself get worried to death about everything
So much so that I’ll stop talking to people I care about because i’m scared